Finally I have some spare time now. I know myself very clearly that I am not such kind of person who can insist on doing something, just like my blog here. I always can not make myself calm down to write something to record my everyday life. Using chinese, may be it is okay for me, I have opened my QQ zone and write something down nearly everyday before I go to bed. But using english, it is a hard thing for me.. After I write some paragraph, I feel tired. Both my brain and my body. I do not know why. Maybe I have no interest in english learning in my deep consciousness. So it is really a embarrassment for me. Relying on excellent english, I can earn a better life. But the truth now is I wanna better life, but do not want to learn english. OMG, why I am such kind of person. Sometimes I do not like such kind of myself.

These days, since it is winter now, I caught a cold again and again and fele weak everyday, I have no passion for my daily work. I know that I am in a very bad mood situation now, but do not know how to change this.

From this week I began to touch some new things, learn in another department. Two days past, I find that I have no interest in those works at all. Maybe I need enjoy a vocation again. What kind of hard thing for me.

Live alone and have no love at all, it is a good thing or not? This problem really trouble me. Love or not love, it is really a problem.