I planed got up at 5 o'clock. And reading some books, and remembering some english words. And then go to bed at 10 o'clock. I think if I insist do such matter, I will improve my poor english. But, it's so misfortune, I got up late in morning. and asleep untill 8 o'clock. All the things was so bad. I lost my confidence, you know, if someone lost his confidence, he'll felt very fail and haven't any confidence to do anything that he want to do.
I felt very hard today. Because everyone was so cold, maybe I must improve my statue. Sometimes I really want to know whether I had something wrong in my action. Maybe I really wrong. Every day I will think whether my action have some problem when I got home. And I will felt worry if I do something wrong. I will blame myself, and lost my confident. Sometimes, I will stand in one place and slience. Sometimes I really afraid to meet my problem caused by my wrong action. You know, everything was so horrible. Sometimes I really want to cry. If a man want to cry, I think must have some problem in his heart. I really want to express all my mind.
I felt consolation because I express all my mind. And now I can doing my matter again. I told myself I must hard to do my work.