I planned to keep a record of the 8-day military training in English . When I was in Shanghai , I kept diaries about it .But I lost the passion to type them and put them on the blog . People are so changeable . Me ,too . I liked the environment of Oriental Green Boat so much that I wanted to live there alone . I wanted to escape from the society , the family and any other interruption . I like lying on a couch in the open air , watching the white clouds in the blue sky floating freely .I don’t have to worry about my son’s study . I don’t want to accept the ss in my holiday. I don’t want to see the leaders who will ask me to do some boring things ,etc. I just wanted to be free ,as free as wind and clouds. Yet , now I have returned to the normal ,usual and real life . But I don’t regret . I am trying to arrange my life wisely and randomly, as I wish . I refused to the ss’ parents’ request. And I feel it is not difficult to look after my son . I make a plan for my everyday . I can do what I like to do . I have my own goal and keep it .