What’s the meaning of life ?How should we live our lives ? What attitude should I have towards my life as a middle-aged woman ? I cannot study ,take an exam and change my job again. What should I pursue ?No boss will hire such an old woman . Shall I wait to death ? I am thinking about such a question now . Sometimes I think it will be OK to die because I will have no worry or suffering . Am I right about that ? I have a happy family and I can’t imagine having a better family . My life has never been tough for me . But why do I disdain my life so much  ? Is that really because I have had enough of happy days ?

No matter how long my life will last , I should try to make myself happy . Only in this way can I take sunlight to others ,right ? It is selfish to only think about myself.