In every day, in suffering through the days to really do not know should also long before, in recent years, but have no results through ups and downs, sometimes special hate oneself, hate oneself sneakingly, failed to live up to all the people of my expectations, the more I'm sorry parents reared, maybe god in deliberately punish me, punish a love illusions love's shortcut guy. Maybe he mature enough, god is to hone his right, I look forward to future happy...