Today I really have a  bad day since I quarreled with my elder brother. I was criticized severely not knowing what I do wrong. After reviewing my diagnosis for four hours, I went to the liberary with the hope that I could find a book which could conquer myself. Unfortunately, I didn`t make it. Setting beside the court alone, I really  felt lonely and helpless just like the moment I spent in high school. Suddenly I realized that I never really get along well with my elder brother. What he said always make me feel I`m a burden for my famiy. Sometimes I feel that there is no one really know me, even my elder brother and parents. However they offer me enough living expenses but we seldom communicate from heart to heart. It seems that all of my family numebers are not good at expressing their feeling. Now I begin to doubt what my brother once suggested to me whether it is right or not. As a boy of 22, I even have no girlfriend as result of accepting my brother`s advice. And I don`t why he protest my hope to be a postgraduate. I think I should do what I really want no matter others even my family support or not.