It's time for rest, but I can't sleep ,I can't give it up ,I am unable for that, It's my mistake, I have already has been punished ,I live in sad world , I feel life boring when I know it is no hope , I want to Travel , To a place where make me forget everyting, it is the wider world, OK , something would not be changed,  what can I do , Only select a method make  me get out the sad world , I am a perceptual person, I admit I made a mistake ,I have no value .

       I have told myself I must't  love her,So I must do someting make her hate me ,and also find something make me hate her,  I was so stupid , someone said "cherish every experience, it is meaningful for your life,Each experience is reasonable " I believe I can have this ,I must be strong , I don't want to write about her ,man should be free and easy ,
I should tell her loud " go out ,I am busy go !"~hoho

    OK I want to go to sleep now , take a bath and sleep. good night!