up to now l have suffered from this mental illness enough !  l dont know if my weak confidence lead to this mental illness or this mental illness caused my weak confidence . how could l do ?  it made me slower than before .  

      what is the mental illness like ? what a pity !  l am not the Psychologist l cant name it . l could describe it through my daily case .  very often my head was being confused and l dont know what l was  doing .  once this case appeared , l would feel very inferior and afraid  . l would reminded myself many times before l got normal . and this mental illness then got worse , l would become afraid every time when my head got confused or had a pause .  could you imagine the suffer?

      evey time l thought of my dream ,and this mental illness would follow . it would always make very nervous .could l overcome it ? could l get the final success ?  some one told me many times the undergraduate is the luckiest one . but l want to confute him . there are some students commit suicide every year in my school . are the undergraduates the happiest ones ?   what l want to tell you is that the mental heath affected the happiness very much . it doesnt matter that a guy is poor or rich . but it must matter that weather he or she has a healthy mentality . a guy would have much more chance to get what he wants with  the health mentality .  so l want to ask me question how can l overcome it ?

   perhaps l was able to write it out and which help myself a lot already .   any advices from you guys in this website ?