in the following night , l  am goint to take the train home . frankly l didnt feel any relaxed or happy . perhaps l would be condemned . it is the reason l want to raise a daughter rather than a son .   from my observations ,  almost all girls would be homesick after a long period away from home  . but the boys differs . .  .   ok !  ok !   perhaps l  perhaps   alibied  for myself .

      the study would be still  my main task in the winter vacation .  what would l do if l dont keep intensive energy  on the study ?  l have no girl friend in the campus . l dont want to give the reasons for that . it  may be one fo my biggest regrets in the campus .   opon stepping in the last year of campus , l realised that GF  is doomed to be absent in campus . l have accepted it  . perhaps  then  l regard the study as my beloved .  l try to keep the balance of my life . the study make  my campus life meanful .   so l would without doubt  proceed study in winter  vacation .  am l a bookworm ?  

        what should l prepare as the study materials ?    l have borrowed five books from the library . four of them are concerned with CCNP . one is about english .  l have downloaded lots of  english films , CCNP videos .   pronunciation videos .    more materials l should download  .   l am expected to download more videos about CCNP .  some videos about oral english . l think the KEKE  english website has various sources .   last but not the least  .  l am expected to study how to surf on the internet with the telephone data . l believe that l could find the proper way .  

       my parents may ask me to live in my uncle's  . l think l mustnt go there . if l go there , l would be a guest there . how old am l ?   l  am expected to make money but l am still a student . l know it isnt my fault . but l cant ignore other people's views  entirely . can you ?  and if l go there , l cant create  a lovely study environment for me .  you know the surrondings is very important for the students .    so l mustnt go there .

        what should l take home ?   l know l must take my laptop home .  a set of clothes . and some books .  what's more ? l want to take the tea home .     and l should take some food to eat on the train . l am an adult now . l should take care of myself all the time .  

        my sister  has telled me that she has a child  .  you didnt misunderstand me !  my sister has a child now ! what should l say ?   my wonderful sister has remarried  even though  her older brother has no girlfriend until now .   she is only 21 years old and l am 22 years old .   this time l am expected to behave maturely . l should regard myself as an adult . in front of  relatives and villagers , l must cover my innocent and childish side . because no one now regard you as the children .   remember it !