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layoff, jobless, lost and hopeful
Dear friends, you maybe get confused when you see the title here, but is is really my experience these days. It was more than 2 weeks since my last blog posted on Aug 03. In the past two weeks lots of things and feeling were crowded together in my limitted mind space, and sometime it was not easy to figure out where I am.
In no surprise, finally the company started economic reducing the staff in large scale which can lower the operation cost. No matter how you perform, you have to follow it and leave. The company is listed in NASDAK and the real situation has to be open to the public, and I am telling the true story. That happened last Thursday. The announcement was made, the staff signed the termination notice and compensation agreement prepared early, and leave on the same day.
You have never understand how compliacted the feeling is if you don't face the situation in person. It happen to be 2 years and one day that I stay with company. You always have a dream when you join in a new company. But after two years when I looking back to see the past days I feel frustrated. The colleagues are getting along very well with each other and at this time they have nothing more to say to each other but one word take care and see off downstairs. I really don't like it and decided to be the last one to leave.
It is my first time to experience this, though I am getting ready in mind and even actions but it is still shocking. I am getting jobless, and no job offer on hand, I am not coming to work tomorrow. Where am I going and how to kill the time? There was no answer. Only one word can describe me, it is LOST.
But I know I have to calm down, face the fact and comb my disordered feeling and figure out what to do. I want to have a break first and stop sending resumes in jobhunting website. I did send a lot in the past and now I decide to stop for a while.
I bought a new laptop, and use my wife's 3G wireless card, still check personal emails. I have to keep my minute occupied and get busy. I got calls each day from the headhunting companies, and it seems that a lot of opportunities are waiting for me. Though I was upset and in a low mood these days I do have my confidence in myself. The confidence will help me cheer up, encourage me to look farward, never give up and be full of hope. A job is important, a platform is more important. I am looking for the latter one.
I am getting ready to have free time for a few months. The layoff compensation helps a balance in finance situation. Next Tuesday I will go back to my hometown and stay for 10 days. I never expect I can have 10 days with my parents in the hometown. I will enjoy and make the best use of every minute because I miss and love the land.
I am getting better now and not worried.
The other feelings to be continued...
Post comment Comment (4 replies)
- Reply bluephoebe
- sorry to hear about that. downsize is really awlful. i understand what you must feel right now, even without financial stress, it's still hard to say goodbye. It has not happened to my company yet, but the economy is really not good. who know what will happen? Anyway, goodluck!
- Reply lyrebird06
- Did you mention the interview opportunity proviede by hunthead company? so great change happened in so short time. I have experienced three layoff. It seems that I am accustomed to it. But I lack of a sense of security now.
- Reply snowflying
- my friend, i have known before,so a word sending to you here: treasure!
