I am not smart even somebody called me a fool seriously. Through the years after graduation, just see the situation of myself and the stuff of what I have accomplished, I feel low at this time. The salary of my job is the lowest of the company, and the position is lowest too. I was intended to do the technical job, but till now I am not confident in that field. I always think what's my feature that no one can replace, but I found none. This year, I made an impossible finance goal for myself, not because I am unrealistic, it is just the time is precious, the goal is so vital to me. What should I do? Seems I have no choice but to wait the moment of another failure befall me (or waiting for the miracle to come, haha~!).