What is this feeling about? I don't know what I need to do, I don't know what I need to write, even I lost some way of expressing myself. There's something changing in my heart. All my mind is filled with your shadow, all I want is feeling the warm of you, but you never give it. I don't know, I lost my mind, I lost my passion, All I know is that, I am wasting time, unless I let you go. But how can I do that? I adore you so much. Damn, what's the meaning of writting these rubbish.
I do not hope you to see it. I just want to express myself. Because I know, there is nothing I can do, writting may help me back into nomal.
What happened? I meet a nice person, and I can't get myself out of it, I mean, well, I am wrong. I should let all of this go. But I can't find a reason to let go, I just want to lay down in bed, and listening music. I just want to sleep and forget everything. My bad time comes again, once I remmeber a passage saying, life is a teacher, it teaches you over and over again until you learns it.
What should I do? I takit seriously to say, well, I think I need to cope it. First, take a good rest, just relax, do the things I like, listening music, sing songs, and read books, and write my mood. Then, I need to plan, I can't destroy my life on it, I mean, I can't like this anymore, I can't let this boring continue, I must plan, yes, I will realx myself, think it over, and plan, plan, plan, think of dreams, think of my life, love myself, how to cope the question? I still don't know. It's so hard for me to let it go, this is all the fundamental reason in it. I need to think, I need to calm down, from alll the knowleage I learned, I think I have had an idea. Be nice and be nice, yes, I think I get it. But question agian, should I face it? or avoid it? Should I know the truth or be myself without any change? Should I think or should I get satisfied? Why do I always think it painful when I need to consider so much? But now, I have the answer, I need to know the truth, I must be paitient and calm, I must be a better of myself. I must be strong, I would rather know the truth in tears than get kissed by the lies. I must be strong, be strong, be calm, be calm, and always keep my inner peace without disturbance.
See I write so much, from rubbish to a clear mind, yes a clear mind. Things I need to do, take a good sleep, just relax, listening music, and plan, and thinking, and plan. Be strong, be calm, keep inner peace, then be strong.