It has been three month I am not myself since I meet you and I appreciated that I wake up this night. Thanks to the experience I had ever undergone, I know a person can't lose his/her heart, if so he/she lost everything. Why? because the infinite power all comes from our heart, if we can't keep the peace of our heart, we can not make everything done. And that's why stay alone on your own and think about yourself your love your furture is good for you.

Here, I am not to tell you the wisdom about what I known, I just tell you this story, hope to give you some hint and I will memorise it as a note just the way as I am done like before.

This person Huhao, I must admit that is the type that I like. But I have no admiration for this person when I first meet Huhao. It is from the day Huhao add my WeChat and send me messages that I turned from normal to affection. See how this begin. Huhao send me messages on WeChat about beautiful pictures. First I didn't take it on mind, but one month later, I thought Huhao maybe have good feelings about me, so I began to have good feelings to this person.

Then, I lost myself in this Huhao's beauty and can't control myself. Every time if I have chance I will be at Huhao's side, and chat with this person. It seems everything goes right, but I lost something important, I am bad mood everyday, I am afraid to see Huhao, I became not confident. I lost passion to do the things I liked, and I can't do every important task especially the English exam I will take at May. This exam is very important to me, but I miss Huhao and can't consentrate myself in preparing the exam.

If you know a deal more about its history you will get more about contempory life, it means past can't be forgotten. I check all the messages between me and Huhao on WeChat through those days, and I found the reason. I never realised that his purpose is destroy me. You may not believe that, but it is true, I make it for sure. Another fact is that Huhao knows the tatics about human, this person knows how to destroy a man, this person once told me the history about win a war. Huhao once read Sun Zi Bing Fa, Master Sun's Art of War, Huhao said, if you want to win your enemy, first make your enemy lost mind, then heart, then emotion, then attack. For example, a hero will lost himself in front of a beauty. So it is ture that Huhao want to make me into chaose, although I do not know why this perosn want to treat me like that, may be Huhao jelous me, for I am so calm or soemthing else.

Now comes the evidence, the message on WeChat. I often do not like to send message on WeChat in friends group. But I like Huhao's comment and I post my thoughts feelings in sake of Huhao's comment. First, Huhao send me beautiful scenery pictures, it is okay. But when I send my thoughts or feelings, all Huhao made was changing me from peace to chaos little by little. If I say I miss you, Huhao will comment, looking forward, do your things better. If I say a sentence which is thoughtful, Huhaoo will comment, be happy is good. If I express my affection to this person, next day, this person will show me a different stuff means Huhao this person do not like my type.

Anyway I realised that, no matter what I post message on WeChat, Huhao will interrupt me, when I was good, Huhao makes me bad. When I become crazy, it is Huhao's time, Huhao will send me message to give a little warm, the result is I become chaos. This person gives me the view or attitude to working hard without aiming for what, this person gives me view or aattitude to working hard, the purpose is making me tired, making my heart tired. The good thing is that, I know I must be joyful, peaceful, calm, all it is from heart and your deepest longing, I mean you can not overlook your dreams, do not let veryone interrupt your dream, if so bomb him/her away.

So here, I hope that, love yourself, you can see the day what yourself will bring to you if you love yourself.

At last, I will end my blog in a beautiful song, from dreamtale, between love and hate. I hope you can look the lyrics, its meaning is what I want to express, very nice.

          Between love and hate
masquerade of our wounded souls
I don’t want to know where you are
you filled my heart with your molten stone
and my soul has ceased to believe
now I know that never is never
now I see that nothing’s forever
now I know that never is never
tonight I'll close the gate
and then I'll walk away
don’t want to be a gambler
between love and hate
tonight I'll close the gate
there's nothing left to say
don't want to be a victim
between love and hate
no one knows how their time passed by
our sweetest years are turning to grey
I dream of youth，still I don’t know why
my passion fails to find my heart
now I know that never is never
now I see that nothing’s forever
now I know that never is never
tonight I'll close the gate
and then I'll walk away
don’t want to be a gambler
between love and hate
tonight I'll close the gate
there's nothing left to say
don't want to be a victim
between love and hate
no more hatred,no more sorrow
no more heaven，no tomorrow
no more crying，no pretending
no more lies，no happy ending
tonight I'll close the gate
and then I'll walk away
don’t want to be a gambler
between love and hate
tonight I'll close the gate
there's nothing left to say
don't want to be a victim
between love and hate