This is the fourth month that I lost my job. My days always go bad. I can feel the stress both from my parents and myself. My parents want me to find a job, but I always sit down in front of computer to listenning music or chatting. I don't know why I don't take action to finding a job, maybe I am too lazy, or maybe I am too timid. I tried to find jobs through net, but looking at the complex websites, I give up, I just mean that it is messy, I feel bad when seeing so many pieces of information, and I don't know if it can be trusted.

So four months past, I cann't find a job, and my parents won't be happy.

Everyday when I go to bed to sleep, I ask myself, what did you do today? I feel shamed, nothing do I have, and it is just a waste of time. I told myself I must change, to choose better so that to have bettter. Everytime I made the plan, but I always can't take the action, or maybe I refuse it after then. I am a coward, maybe it is time for me to be strong now, and take proof for them to see, I can.