I never have had this feeling so strong, today is monday, not like everyone else, I am at home, find nothing to do, this feeling of idle want to kill me. My heart is full of sadness, my tears have been used up, I am cold, empty, lonely. I can't find someone to chat with, I don't find friends and this loneliness is killing me. I wish to write my book, but I was stucked in the tough. No matter what, I hope this cloudy days go over as soon as possible.