I know I was a shy person and I know that is terrible character for me. Because ,sometimes, shyness equals losing opportunities. Other times, shyness equals rude behavior,, For example, when you encounter some acquaintance, if you don't greet them hello, they would think you just don't want to talk to them, not you are shy.
So, compared to talking to someone face to face , I would rather texting them of leave them massages by chat tools like qq. Because, in this way I can express myself better. But, obviously, that doesn't work.
Before I meet someone, genarally, they have a really good impression on me, because I am polite and friendly in letters or emails. When they finally met me, I know, they belive I am as good as they thought before. Because I am shy.
Life is not easy, I want to change. So, everytime I stroll out of my lab, I force myself to smile. I told myself, now I am an actor, I must pretend I am happy and sunny and willing to greeting everbody I met. It kinda work.
On doing this, my mood is better than before. I am transforming myself into extrovert person step by step. I need to insist on doing this, cause I know, this can form a good habit, a good habit can form a good character and a good character lead to happily ever after.