It is an embarrassment to admit what we had done wrong or absurd, and it makes me hesitate to tell you about the story which happened two year ago. it began unluckily from my job hunting, to be frank, i had seaveral good job opportunity when i wanted to work professionaly, big international group,state-own huge company and reaserch institution,etc,on other hand, those bring with me tourble, i had difficult to deceide which is best or better for me. i received opinion from my friends, my parents,my teachers and my girlfriend,but it did not work, the problem lasted for the whole year. At last, i chose the current job, because i had to make a decesion, but not reasonable one.
Then, i came to do current job last july, but i have to say i had never loved it, and it is not the first time i regreted after i made decesions. i have the habit. there are several reasons explaining it. Firstly, i do not my specail hobby, i can do this, i can do that, but which is my favorite, i do not know. Secondly, i have a dream, the aim is that i could fight for a lot of wealth, money, respect, dealing with people technology and influence of outside world. i hope i can do favor for helples people, and one day, i could give young guys a meanful lecture as many successors, like the King,Carnegie,etc. it is clear that i must have had acomplished outstanding life before i could make true my dream.
Time is flowing quickly, i deeply understand that one who wants to succeed must do right thing at every progress of life. My dreams makes me impatient, sometimes, upset.i often take a deep breath to make myself calm. It is clear that i must keep calm and prepare for the future.
Another point i have to warn myself is that the successful one must keep theyself 'on the road', happy or sad, whatever.