It's been the third year since I decided to work in Beijing, and the year of 2011 is quite tortuous as usual.

In Mar. I found this job as an translator in an immigration company through a website of job.com in Shanghai, after I had took the champion of Qatar Airline.

When I went downstairs by elevator from 22nd floor of Pullman Shanghai Skyway, a 5-star hotel, I felt exhausted and helpless, as the severe competition of cabin crew champion and most of the part ,I didn't get enough preparation. To be an cabin crew of a 5-star airline company, it seemed that there was still a distance to me!

I brought many clothes in three plastic bags in my hands while I was wearing a pair of high heels, I want to cry as I was feeling hot and anxious. So during the process of interview, I can't calm down myself, this tiny evidence was discovered by this interviewer. When she watched my face  and told me: " well, Xiaolei, although you are a lovely girl, but anyway, have a nice day." her words were just what I was thinking about, and I know the reason why I failed---I was unhappy during the process of interview!

After I graduated from university ,I got a bachelor degree, and I was so confident that I can have a good and hopeful future, but I neglect the reality, which was curial and indifferent, I was struggling in my heart.

When I went down to the 2nd floor of  Pullman Shanghai Skyway, in the washing room where I met a girl ,whose name was Li Dan, a sunny girl, with a warm smile and happy attitude, she told me that there was a cyber bar near Shanghai train station, and she would go surfing the internet after the interview to wait for the result .It's unbelievable i thought in my heart, because I thought the cabin crew were so dignified (But I didn't think so now),and they wouldn't prefer to go cyber bar ,which showed so horrible environment. But Li Dan changed my mind! So I decided to go to this cyber bar and restarted to find a job in Beijing (As I told the interviewer that I came from my hometown rather than Beijing, she was surprised ,because I wrote down Beijing as my working location in my resume，she didn't know I had been to my hometown to drop by my parents, and I just didn't want to explain too much about this point.)

Then, in the afternoon of that day, a call came to me, a immigration company in Beijing want to give me a chance to interview. So I went back to Beijing again in March. What in my mind was I shouldn't give up and I should go on my life in Beijing.

I received the offer of that immigration company, as an general secretary, and I was praised by CEO-Helen ,a quite strong woman, the day when I resigned, she still sang me a high praise. I showed myself in that seminar without fair, but just did what I want to do.

As an presider ,I met Mr.Stepher Archley, the mayor of Pobona city in South Califonia;Mr.Divid Lu,CEO of an immigration program in Pobona city and his wife; and formal Canadian immigration officer, I was so tiny ,they looked like unfolding an scroll of history of going abroad from China to Us and Ca. I was so excited and energetic and I finished this task perfectly! (And I was so beautiful that everyone stared at me rather than the VIPs attended this immigration seminar)

And I made many friends while I was showing myself, they are immigration consultants ,immigration translators. 

However, I just want to be an cabin crew, so I didn't pay much attention on my work after this seminar because I made some mistakes. After the conversation to HR manager ,I left this company. 

Then, I prepared the interview of EK in May, although it's a very tough process, because I dissolved the one-year house rent contract ,I have to deal with the staffs of house rent agency, where I was nearly fight against them, because they were so many people and I can't  get an agreement with them, like the person who took charge of my room asked me to pay 500 RMB as the wear fee. I think it was unreasonable, and required a reason, it was natural that he even can't give me a reason. How ugly this behavior was. Then the boss of this agency came, and said I didn't need to pay the extra wear fee, Thanks god, As soon as I get the deposit, I swore that I would never deal with this agency any more. 

Several days later, luckily,I passed the first interview of EK. and the second round of interview would be hold in June. So, I went back to my hometown during these two weeks in between.

I took the champion of NZ in Shanghai by the way, but I didn't pass, I think it's God's decision that I should go to EK.

I know myself quite well why I failed in the second round of EK champion, because I didn't practise English till the day before that champion, and I was so nervous that my nose blooded in the midnight. How eager that I wish I can be successful! 

Unfortunately failed and the result wasn't beyond my expectation. I felt tired, when I went out of Zhaolong hotel ,I saw a bride who smiled happily to her friends ,when I saw this happy sense ,I cried in my heart ,I have owned nothing ,but I will get everything ,and as happy as them are some day soon! 

When I took a taxi outside, I met a girl whose name was Peng zi, the same result to me,(but she has become an cabin crew of Swiss airline now.)I promised to her that if I would be a CC of EK,I will invite her for dinner. 

At the same time, I found another job in a foreign agency in Jianwai Soho.It's a hot and romantic summer, a French guy was so charming that he told me something about fun. I didn't think it was suitable for me. But after experience so many ups and downs, I think I need a boyfriend or maybe I could get married. 

If God blessed me and gave me everything after He had deprived of everything from me first, I would be willing to be humble and sung high praise to him. I can't believe the magic things can really be existence in this world, and it's just like a dream which I can't dare to imagine ever! 

Indeed, I should say my life was blessed by God. So recently, I have been to church again for English fellowship, a chance to speak English, and it's a happy experience. 

The forbidden period was over after 6 months I can take the champion of EK in Dec.

I hope I can get a good result. And become a CC of EK to make my promise all come true!