when i stepped out of the office ,all of a suddent ,my heart was sinking to bottom .my chest was blocked by a huge rock .Mr.wang 's indifferent response lingered around my ear .It was hard for me to swallow my anger to him.either ,I wasn't able to take immediately action to opposite to him .I just resented alone .
this was all of the pictures of my situation .I was ignored by colleagues ,hurted by indirect judgments ,scolded by my single wasted words. Even like this ,I didn't give up my attempts to make them accept me .I tried to amuse everyone .In the office ,there always existed a rule that the leader dominate all .you must pay attention to your words and be careful to talk with your leader .you must be prone to saving your leader's face in everywhere .this is alive strategy in office when you were in disadantage position. of course ,I came up with it by my own opinions . all of this made me crazy.
I hope i can play deliberately and cope with relationship more flexibly.but i turn myself down.my colleagues ' reaction to me made me knowing that it is a profound course that I should learn more . I cann't meet the leader's desires .Even i sitted there doing nothing was wrong ,let alone i did something .there was always a basket of dissatisfactions awaiting for me .
I just felt tired of all of this . A unfriendly hints would be given through a dialogue between other two colleagues .The indirect words always hurted me a lot .how awful it is ! I really want to escape from this situation .
How long will I fight for this depressing situation ?