All things I wrote before were lost except things in QQ zone. Just like one of my QQ friends said, “sometimes, when I am depressed, I’ll read my articles before in QQ zone and it will cheer me up quickly.” We’re only common people, there is never going to be someone to write things about you, no matter past, now or future, so we can only just write things by ourselves. Time goes by and leaves only memory, but if you don’t record it, the memory will be lost sooner or later.

I wrote my first QQ article on October 16th, 2006 and I was just like people born in 1990 now. It was also my first time to live alone without being a student in Ningbo. Then I wrote stupid words to hurt some people and dared not to write something in QQ zone anymore. When I worked in a company, I always wished I could work all seven days in a week, because I didn’t have a computer or a TV to amuse myself. I didn’t know how to cook and had to eat in the company every day. The only book I had is a small dictionary edited by Liu Yuecheng. I had to read it again and again, why? No reason, just waste time. Sometimes I could go out with my friend Bo to fool around in Ningbo, I just read the small dictionary when I was available. My first mobile phone was Nokia 3120 and it didn’t even have the function to read e-books. 

  At first, I lived at my friend Bo’s home and all his family members are great. His mother cooked dinner and even washed clothes for me. I was really grateful and even his cute son Bai Wei treated me well. But I was a man with great self-mastery, I tried my best to find a room and moved out. Brother Bo and His wife Yuan only left until they got everything ready in the room for me. Really true friends, maybe I should write something and remind myself not to forget them.

  For the whole year 2007, I didn’t write anything. Until march 19th, 2008, I wrote my first article when I came to Shenzhen for the first time. I just read my article English. Without writing something on that day, I wouldn’t know my thought on that day. I was really a little crazy about English then, but not crazy enough, maybe that’s the reason why my English was still so poor. Studying English with English is really a good method, but it needs English basis. I just had grandiloquence and find most of them are only in vain. I don’t earn my bread by English now and am not a translator. Watching English movie, I think it’s the only thing I did. There is no need to regret, just need to try my best to do something now. OALD replaced the small dictionary in Ningbo, I had no things to amuse myself in Shenzhen too. That’s why I bought OALD with me.

  On March 19th, 2008, I also wrote an article Why so lonely?. It was just because of Amy, who was my best bosom friend, at least I thought so. Amy was very ill and I worried her a lot.

At college, we were nabs. I didn’t know whether there was really friendship existed between woman and man. She is well and happy now, and has a great boyfriend, so we don’t contact with each other anymore. Maybe the answer is no. There isn’t real friendship between woman and man.

  English again, another crazy article wrote by me, I just thought of English every day to avoid the reality. Being a master of one thing is really difficult. I don’t know why I said Zhilian was the only web I would surf. Study Crazily, I had great ambition, but no great perseverance, so that’s why I’m still a loser now. Easier said than done. I couldn’t become crazy about English only regardless of other things. I even had the ambition of reciting OALD but don’t finish it.

  On April 2rd, I found a good website Wikipedia and it included all kinds of knowledge in English. From then on, I read several articles every day when I can access the Internet. Really a good website without advertisement and totally treats knowledge dissemination as its own aim.

  By accident, I accessed the QQ zone of my colleague Ric and found literary talented articles and decided to translate some of them. I always like to read things about the richest man, especially those from rags to riches. Of course they have unusual spirit.

 How to find a job? I was naïve and crooked by a motorbike rider. The society is full of all kinds of people, really different from teachers and classmates at school. My past memory is just like a storehouse in a mess. Just stop here.