When I was having supper and reading DioEnglish articles this evening, a big cockroach came in from the window and disturbed my aesthetic mood too much. I put down my chopsticks and tried to catch it, but it was very flexible. Though I wasn’t a clumsy person, my effort was only in vain.

    The big guy became very cocky and showed itself around just under my eyes intently. Even its two antennas seemed to dance with the melody of my speaker. I tried to use my feet to step on it, time and again, failure was the only result. So I just decided to ignore it completely and continue my eating and reading. I didn’t want to waste my precious time on the big guy.

    Usually extreme joy begets sorrow. The big guy was so high that it just jumped into my big bucket, unfortunately, which was full of water.

    Aha, it was time for me to be high. Though it was immersed in the water of bucket, I still thought it wasn’t enough to vent my hate. I just decided to waste a pair of chopsticks and used them to clamp the big guy tightly and dipped it into the bottom. Through the transparent water, gradually, I saw its two antennas swaying slower and slower, finally coming to a stop. Suddenly I began to show sympathy on it, after all it was a life. So I got it out of the water and put it on floor.

    At first, it was still, I thought it was dead and was a little regretted. But after a little while, its legs began to move slowly, even its antennas, also began to sway again. Seeing the swaying antennas, I felt sick again, then quickly used my chopsticks to clamp it, dipped it into the water again.

    Seeing its shadow in the water, I thought I was a little cruel, after all, there wasn’t enmity between us. Why did I want to kill it? I got it out again and put it on the floor. In a flash, it even tried to fly. I was suddenly afraid of its escape and stepped my right foot on it without even knowing what I was doing. Finally ,the big cockroach was smashed by me, I was just in meditation and found myself so irresolute. Though I knew it before, I never thought my irresolution was so serious. Thanks for the big guy, now I know I must become decisive now. Wish its soul rest in peace, amen.