I’ve been thinking of this problem for a long time without result. Day after day and night after night, I want to find my road. I’ve read a lot of biographies of other people and can’t find any useful clue from them either.

I want to have soul-stirring things in my life, after all, life is really so short. No matter you’re rich or poor, death is always the result. The only thing I can do is to cherish the limited life and do something to my heart’s desire so that I won’t have regrets while dying to my end.

I don’t like manage other people or being managed by other people and don’t think I’m a man who has something to do with power. When I read Romance of Three Kingdoms before, I admired heroes such as Cao Cao and Liu Bei, however, while encountering Yu Ji, I admired him instead. If one can be a priest as power as Yu Ji, there is no need to think of power and money anymore, what’s meaning of them to a priest? Though priest with magic isn’t real, I find myself is only a man who loves self-cultivation more than power and money.

So I need money to support myself at first. By how? I have to own an unique skill so that I can earn bread enough. One unique skill is really enough. If a thing, you can’t sure whether you’ll become No.1, listen to me, you’d better ignore it and try to find another thing because it isn’t your dish.

Find your thing and try to be No.1, then your life will be perfect. Pursuing wisdom is a thing for life. If you want to learn something, you have to be peaceful. Only do it with heart and soul, you can achieve success. In a puzzling word, only ignore success can make you successful.

Just take writing for example, if you want to earn money or something else by writing, of course, it’s really hard for you to write readable things. Most of people become successful only because they love writing from the deepest place of their heart. If you can’t write using the deepest place of your heart, how could you expect your writing to stir reader’s deepest place of heart?

I need to be peaceful even though I achieve nothing. I have to seek a balance between life and skill. I mustn’t sacrifice life for skill or sacrifice skill for life. I must seek a way best for both of them. If I sharpen my skill to the peak at the price of my heath or keep my health by sacrificing my skill, which means my balance being broken.

In a word, have a regular life and use time as much as possible to sharpen your skill. The feeling of being on top is really so nice and can make people young. Meditation is really a good habit for learning something. When you’re in meditation to learn something, you can keep all other things away from your mind so that you can learn it heart and soul.

Have a regular life, sharpen my skill, learn meditation to have a peaceful mind. That’s what I have to do right now.