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Merry X'mas
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ridiculous.
Now you play nice to me.
Get lost.
a whole family prey on others.
Who should I blame in this fucking universe.
Yes, it's me. myself
weak. easy to control. and a loser.
this year is terrible. a real hell.
open with an ironic and failed suicide
end with a recognition of my weakness. finally
Now, it's X'mas. But what's the point?
a new year, a new beginning?
I am losing feelings. I am losing energy. I am losing everything once I'm proud of.
Jesus, Christ.
My life is getting worse and I am going to save it.
From now, my X'mas wish.
a routing life. a simple belief that my life is getting better.
Amara, I will come back for you. I will make everything perfect again.
That's all.
Merry bloody Christmas.
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Post comment Comment (9 replies)
- Reply snowflying
- my friend, each life is only in this world, and each life always has differen twist on the way. we experience the taste of life, not only including sweet and happy ,but also bitter and pain,maybe bittersweet. try to enjoy and value from the bittersweet, God is fair,merely from different aspects. cheer up, my friend.
- Reply samscri
- We thought we need so many to be happy in lives, while we really need is simply happpiness...
- Reply Amaranthine
- Tange: merry christmas to youthanks~
- Reply Amaranthine
- Haiena: Calm down dear. Things will work out if you try.Yep, I am trying!!! Much better. Fight on!!!
- Reply Amaranthine
- snowflying: my friend, each life is only in this world, and each life always has differen twist on the way. we experience the taste of life, not only including swThank you very much!!
I should try to understand the bittersweet.
Maybe just because I am too lucky last few years
I can't accommodate these chaos.
Thanks a lot. I am going to cheer up.
Have a routine life. Have a better life in 2012
- Reply Amaranthine
- samscri: We thought we need so many to be happy in lives, while we really need is simply happpiness...Not everyone can understand those simple principles in life.
But now, I'm going to enjoy the little things.
- Reply Amaranthine
- maybe you feel life has never stopped whittling our hope and pride,maybe it just does do it these days,these years......laugh wildly till can't breath,rock to death one night,and then suffocated by nameless tears in heart and throat the second day.tried to stand up and smile and perswuade ourselves that we ourselves are the best in the dawn and collapsed again in the dusk.fed up with running in those endless ridiculous circles,we prayed in tear for a redemption and a permanent escape but finally gave up in ghastly depression..but life goes on,the fool swallow the bitter fruit of his own making.i'm that fool,maybe you are,too.some people are too strict with themselves in some meaningless points,just hold on,and try again and again,till one day we can suddenly understand what life is about.keep hope in your mind,no matter what happens.
