only within two days, we had several quarrels with my love as a result of some piece of cakes.sometimes i think maybe i had made a mistake at the beginning which we don't fit very well each other.

though he is humor, serious ,responsible and love me deeply, i can't bear his some weakness and beyong control my bad mood when i see he always play close to the point of sleepless night. this make me feel that he is idling away his youth and break his favorable in my heart. so recently, i get more and more bored and disappointed to him. in the fact , i aslo know  he have been facing some enormous difficulties on his career and remain rest times at present.

i have no idea why my heart get colder and colder and couldn't find former warm and sweet.i am very confused that wether i really love him deeply.is it right that my choice was made three years ago?why i couldn't love and concern him as he do? maybe i am really so selfish and numb that i can't  taste his deep love and love others. i am afraid that loneliness and numb will belong to me hereafter.

maybe, it is right choice to break up at time. but why my  heart always feel very hurt? love really make people happy, sad as well as sweet. after all, we had too many sweet memorys  since we met on the train three years ago.