2012，I am going to be changing .

Rebuilding myself, as the development of everything, and I am going to graduate.

By tracing back to 2011, I am satisfied with it.

I give myself 80 points. I have achieved most of what I asked myself to do after all. 

I talk to myself from the bottom of my heart: I will not regret for anything, which is my principle all the time. No matter what I did; what the choices I made in the past year, I affirm them. There must be marvelous scenery in every path as long as you do put your heart in it and enjoy it.

Yep, I am not regretful for coming to SZ even though my BF didn’t live up my expectation and his family didn’t spoil me as the way I take for grant for them to do. I am not regretful for choosing GSGH even though the colleagues here treated us seriously and unfriendly at first while it stands the opposite situation in other hotels because there is strength in numbers! I am not regretful for giving up the chance to study further by struggling for higher certificate.

As for English, I kept practicing and passed CET6 with the highest score among all my schoolmates even though I didn’t reach the goal of 600. I was the only one student selected to represent our school taking part in the English writing competition. The good news is that I fall in love with English writing and develop into the habit of keeping writing dairy later even though I didn’t get award in the competition. And after that I didn’t give up my pursuit; I change my method of learning English after leaving school. I kept watching the American dramas during this several months and I think the moment when Peter Wu said “your English is very good” have proved my success.

As for the internship, I am summarizing what I have done as follows:

I once worked with the aunts to clean the rooms upstairs as a waitress. I was dispatched to PA & Linen room to help several days. I have also gone to lobby bar to help western restaurant for 10 days. I made presentation of operator English training. I help our department to scrawl on the wall overtime for the activity. I taught them to dance and we represented our department to make the show in the final party of our hotel.

Turing scaring them to cry into feeling bored to shout at them (the housekeeping aunts) at last, I have totally adapted myself into the environment. I become sophisticated now. Obviously, I am not passionate and bookish as before anymore.

But, the only one thing remains the same is that I am responsible. I would do what I should do on work all the time though it is boring and meaningless to a large extent. I am strict with myself as usual.

To sum up, from this half year, I found I am not suitable for the position of an operator because I found it not creative and challenging at all. I can’t bear to repeat the same things every day and I would rather be a waitress because you can meet various people from different countries and you will never know who will appear in your sight, especially sometimes some surprises while you are required to sit in the office and hear the voice of gust and convey the message as an megaphone.

As a result, in the long term, I must admit the fact that my dream of being a translator is too far away from me. Therefore, to be realistic, I think I incline to be a business woman. By coincidence, my elder brother is asking me to come to help him sell the jades in Guangzhou after granulation because my sister-in-law is pregnant, offering me the change to reach it. But as everything has the pros and cons, the business has nothing to do with English, which is my favorite as well as advantage. Yet, what I need to do is accepting it first and I will never know what will happen in the future.

So, as for the following New Year, I have new wishes and new plan:

1. for the rest 1 month staying in SZ, I am making the temporary plan:

①  Language: Getting a good command of Cantonese for the reason that I am going to survive in GZ.

②   Finishing the paper of internship assigned by our school because it would be dome sooner or later.

③  Travelling: the next destination： Hong Kong

2. In a long term, for the next year, all the goals were listed:

①  Skills: It is time for me to learn how to be a wise merchant.

②  Considering that I will live alone instead of in group, I think it is the time for me to learn some cooking skills to delicious food

③  Literature: I finished the book 《screw up the wall of your mind》《Meet yourself in the future》《Tuesday with Mirror》， it is enough to guide my way forward. Moreover, I found that it is not good for us reading too much psychological books, which leads you to become unrealistic and not interested in the things all around the world. Thus, I will move my step to sth more technical and knowledgeable.

④  Interest: I love swimming; dancing and skating. I went skating for some times and I enjoyed my show of dance in the final party of our hotel. I am not sure whether I have enough time in continuing my interest. I will do it as long as I am available.

⑤  The movies hadn’t finished：《wild china》《哈佛公开课》《奥普拉》

⑥  Diet：Resisting the rubbish food like instant noodle roughly as usual

Sure enough, 22，I am 22 ,I have got into the legal age getting married.

However, as for me, I am the late-marrying supporter.

I am young. I am passionate. I am young, I am free.

I will get marry till the day when I make my career stable.

Moreover, everyone is created by independent.

I would like to tell myself that I can lead a happy life without a man.

Besides, every one of us lady must to be independent.

It is the forever truth that we women must master your own economy to a certain extent.

Never fail to follow my heart.being ready to give myself a smile, speak it out loundly : yes, I can! Never give my pursuit of the life and my dream!

答应自己的事情就要做到，随时给自己准备一个微笑 告诉自己 我可以！

始终不放弃自己对生活的追求。对梦想的追求。

                                                                      author:soledadz

                                                                      于：2012-01-23