My college life

                                                                      -about a girl pursuing her dream

“I am here, Guangdong Textile Polytechnic Institute, but I have no feelings. Finally, I know why the photographs of the campus scenery on the website are nothing but school gates. To my surprise, even the flowers and the grasses besides our school belong to the stone park but not us. I hate the stone village, which is crowded and dirty. I hate the school, I hate the dormitory; I hate the toilet; I hate all the things around here. Thankfully, the only thing is worthy mentioning is that the senior sisters and brothers are very enthusiastic, besides, I believe that those 3 years will end quickly and that college means nothing to us for the reason that college is just a stage for everyone to find themselves ,to show themselves ，but， the college life all depends on ourselves!”

Turning to my old diary, on which I recorded my feelings when I entered such college, I was impressed by this first passage. In fact, ever since the first step I came here, I have clearly understood what I would be after three years--just nothing. Being a junior college student, what should I do and what can I do，I have no ideas about anything .Therefore, I am afraid of graduating, I am afraid of working. However, I asked myself “can I do that?” no, I must live up to what my parents expect, and I must be responsible for my future. Therefore, the only thing I should do is to live each day to the fullest and do the very best I can. Thus, I have to redouble my efforts….

My college life started with a dream, from beginning to end--that is, being an excellent college student like my cousin, who studies in South China Normal University. He wined the scholarship every year and he used to be the president of the students' union, and now he is a freshman class teacher assistant. However, he is just 1 years older than me. Before I entered university, he had told me that we should live the college life without regret. I benefited a lot from him. Therefore, at the beginning of my college life, I determined not to be passive and timid as I did when I was a high school student any more, but to study hard and take an active part in all kinds of community activities.

Thus, it began with the class leaders' election, I joined in, but I lost .and than in The English Reciting Contest, being affected by nerves and inexperience, I failed again though I was highly praised by our dear teacher, Johnye, when we practiced reciting in our own class before we really joined in the final. Not having had enough experiences on the stage, I failed again and again.

Just as a saying goes: a good beginning is half done .But, as far as I'm concerned, a bad beginning frustrates a person, and as a result, it will kill a person's confidence, It will kill a person's passion. It is painful for me to force myself to change myself and do something that I do not want. Actually, there was a time when I lost my heart and wanted to give up. Yet usually speaking, the most important as well as the most difficult part of success is the first step. Nevertheless, I never forgot my cousin and kept pursuing my dream. Therefore, I persuaded myself out of giving up. I answered questions actively in the class; each time when it needed one person to deal with something in the class, it was I who dared to come forth and took it over; and I also made my own schedule and regulations, which must be strictly observed. What's more, I seized every opportunity to try regardless of face problems. I worked harder to fight the next elections; I spared no efforts to study. Deep in my heart, there was the desire to prove to be excellent through my own efforts.

After the long battle, finally, I did it. I won the first-class scholarship for the outstanding academic record. I got the first prize of the National Computer Rank II Examination in my class. I have ever been the hostess of the English Imitating Contest. Besides, now I am the vice-chairman of the PC Association and E-commerce Association, what makes me most delighted is being the party branch secretaries of HE 09 because all numbers of my class support me. In a word, I can hardly describe how happy I am, to see that all my efforts finally paid off.

On the other hand, as an English major student, what we all want to get is the CET4 & CET6 certificate, which is the only same objective of us. I cannot imagine how shameful it would be when a person who is not from the foreign language department asks me “Have you passed the CET4?” and then I reply “no”. Therefore, I tried my hardest to do it. To my surprise, I got the first prize of CET4 result in our foreign language department, or even in our school. On first glance, it seemed to be wonderful, but after thinking, later, I felt stressful because of CET6, which is another challenge I should take, and this time, I should not fail. I must be responsible for it; I have no choice but to work harder to fight!

Being a sophomore, school begins till now also already one month, to be honest, within this month I have accomplished nothing. what make it rather disturbing is the unfinished matters：being the volunteer of Asian games, Recruiting new members of PC association & E-Commerce association, the work of party branch secretaries, hotel internship, preparation for the contest, learning the knowledge of textbook, and CET6…

I am occupied with so many affairs. I feel tired, I feel stressful, I feel helpless, I want to be absence for some time, and I want to be alone, doing whatever I like.

So now,

I am running,

I am escaping…

……

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No matter failure or success, it pushes me forward step by step. Maybe, what we can learn from the textbook is very limited while in college, instead, learning to be independent, learning to accept failure, learning to deal with matters are far more important. Make plans, believe in yourself, and try your best for what you want. In a word, I will continue pursuing my dream and I will cherish my time, cherish my college life.

                                                                                                                                                  Author:詹小红

                                                                                                                                                   酒英 09

                                                                                                                                                    2010-9-29