Now you really have much time wasting during your job, during your work time ,since you have been fallen into a big trouble ,that is you know you were wasting your time ,and you know you should be work during the working time , but you still waste the time since you do not know what you need to do ,because you have done some work before, but there you can not feel that the work you have done were a good result ...It means that what you did before were useless, you were very disappointment about the effort you have paid ....You are so negative about your now job state and your now work way, and sometimes you want to escape from the now job and change a new one, but this thought did not that strong.
You know that No pains No gains,that does not mean , you have paid,and you must get a good result .....You know the truth that clearly, but have you really understand that meaning in your heart? No you have not, you just want to escape when you were facing the problems in your job, that is not a good way and good altitude towards the life and the work ,you need to be brave to face the problems , you need to be more courageous....
Will write later .......