I am not a very confident girl in some degree, and always i feel i am not so brave to face somethings like the work and also the emotional things, to look back the previous things happened in my life, i found i am not a brave girl ,and always try to escape when happen to meet something , i need to change this from now on , also i think it is not to late to realize this things, and this disadvantage in my characters and my way to solve and to face the different things, i think it is very difficult to solve this problems, it need more time and more self-examinations.
Like the leave of my colleagues,i think i need to grow up, and i need to learn more things, actually sometimes i do not like to speak with the strangers and always want to escape from the society ,because i found some times, they are not very good, maybe i am so nervous to contact with them and to timid to talk with them , at some times i am some self -abased .I think i need to change this also ..
I do not know how to empress my feelings now, some lost of my feelings, some unhappy ,some crazy about my mind, also some other not very good feelings in my mind, i want to be success in some degree, but some times i will make some mistakes and make the others feel funny about my mistakes, i do not know whether these things make me feel depress, and feel not good, and feel not very confident.
I know that , we always persuade others that the things are not like that, you are thinking too much about that ,the people are not with the unkind feeling when they feel you funny, or that , they are not mean to hurt you , or that you are a so sensitive girl , they are not thinking like that ...maybe that is right , and the reasons you said are right, but how could i feel that, since you can not feeling the other people‘s feelings like they really feel .
Now i just want to vent my bad feeling in this blog, and i think it is a way to vent my feeling, if i was not write that, maybe i will really feel crazy...
Thank for there has some place i can vent my feeling, but this bad feelings are not very good for others i think .
We are humans, we have the different feeling in one day ,or in one hour, sometimes we do not know how that happens, the animals also have the feelings, but not like humans , the humans can find many ways to vent it , like writing ,eating, walking ,running, singing, and also some other ways ....
I need to do more to make me become stronger and more powerful of my heart....