I do have no idea on how to study more things such like a skill to live up or some other means to stand up. Everyday, I feel the word is beyond from me  further and further. The life is go on by itself. No matter am I happy or not, time always past on time.  Someone ever said, if you smile to the world , then the same it will for you. But, how could I smile when I am suffering from agonies. Too much unlucky and too much unhappy make one to be crazy. Even though one do not realize that. Or even he knows that, he must pretend nothing was wrong. That's what someone lives in this world. I have got a thinking that suddenly, if all the human being choose to stay on the sea just like the legend of 1900, what will the world going to be? Is there something wrong? A local moral , a feeling of love home of one's own. Then why it possible that a harmony world will or having exist?  My bread and my milk ,  not yours,  if that belongs me. So with the same time and space, from you must have been excepted. There's no equality in abstract meanings. All of us just lost in a dreadful nightmare. The sun of shine?  Smile?  Crazy?