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This evening, stealing the laptop from my father's control, (He currently is nuts bout using my laptop to explore domestic political situation and trend or some analysis of big issues on foreign websites cuz I've got the software to "get over the virtul wall")I am forcing myself to clear my mind and sort out all the disturbing things occured and would occure this term.
1. My weekends have been poorly reduced into one day rest. On Saturdays, I have to stay at school and tutor those less competitive students cuz the headmaster ordered, " We need to inject more energy and efforts into those who are low in score. Everyone has the ability to rank high as long as they are engaged in hardwork. Their potential should be developed! And you teachers, without a second thought, ought to have the willpower, the confidence and the great spirit of sacrifice to devote all yourself to the healthy growth of the young generation!" Therefore, I am going be exploited with a deeply grateful heart. The only problem is that I have no idea whether the students can be inspired or can they make any progress while doing endless exercises on a nicely beatutiful Saturday morning with birds twittering, not to mention a "healthy growth". Well, over-developing only leads to land degradation, where flowers wither even before blossom.
2. The tutoring thing totally confused all my schedules. Last week, I just made up my mind to teach Bible English to the children at church for I've realized that I cannot only take from God, but also give. God even sacrificed his begotten son to the world, and He loves us so much. He is love. I have to pay the love back so as to stay in him, in his love and be his little lamb. Teaching English and Bible is the best I can do for Him. Being planted in the love and principles of God at one's early age can save a lot of troubles and lead one's way direct to holiness. I really need to figure out a proporiate way to solve this problem.
3. Going abroad or stay in China. Going to further study in UK means I would lose the currently stable job, while being a teacher for the lifetime would kill me. I've received Stirling's offer for almost a month, and I have to make a decision in ten days. I'm still waiting for the Liverpool and Newcastle's response. Since Stirling is in Scotland, Europe is suffering a freezing cold weather nowadays, and considering the terrible economy, I have more and more reasons not to go....Meanwhile, staying here equals a life full of trifles and of mediocrity. Life is tough, not because how it goes, but because we are making decisions every minite. And we can never anticipate the future. Anyway, be a doer and hope God helps choose my fate.
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- Reply rich
- so you're also a teacher. hehe. you must be very busy tutoring students after class. is it a required task or just volunteer work? we do some tutoring occasionally, but it all depends on your own decision. as for studying abroad, i think it would be better to do it now than later, while you're young. it should be no problem to find a job like teaching or even better. just my personal opinion. good luck!
- Reply corapaopao
- rich: so you're also a teacher. hehe. you must be very busy tutoring students after class. is it a required task or just volunteer work? we do some tutoringMy tutoring job is mandatory.
