Yeah, it should have been a piece of good news for me to be appointed as an assisstant teacher in Peicai Middle School. However, things turn out that I am not so satisfied with myself. I still dwell upon what I have said to the dean. As a matter of fact, I just began our conversation by introducing myself and asking something that was relevant to this job, which makes me feel intuitively that the dean would not like me as I talked with her in a humble-like way but with not so much respect, but don't get me wrong, I just feel in this way, thinking maybe I could have behaved in a more appropriate way since I should not have told her additionally that I was recommended by Miss Jiang, which will make people feel I am...I could not tell, or use any words to describe it but, I just feel bad, but one thing that I can make sure is  I am not such a so-called arrogant person. I thought maybe it is because I think too much, being a little bit sensitive.

       But what I really concern about in this matter is the art of communication.As a student who is and always will be inferior to the teacher to some extent, I was wondering how we could make a conversation become less tense with more active atmosphere. During the conversation with Miss Zhang, I use a not so formal way to talk with her. Actually, when we have a first talk with somebody, especially who is superior to you, we might better use a somewhat formal way with proper manner, instead of treating them as our crony or good friends. As we know, we usually use slang words in the conversations with our classmates or close friends. Hoo, I just hope that the teacher will not blame me of my not being so humble and serious this evening. Anyway,  I will try my best to make myself equal to this job, though it will be a much trivial one concerned with correcting students' papers or homework. Fight for my dream and let the meditation stop right after I finish this blog. That's enough. Breathe, and exhale.Nothing happened.