I am here since 10 days ago. My special duty was off. I should celebrate. While. I am little pathetic. I have special emotion with them. Without argument. Here. I have been cultivated to be a easygoing. Outgoing. Or philosophic man. When many friends talked of me. I am symbols of local folklore. Religionism. And politic. I am civil servant. I passed the exam successfully. I worshipped this job. With honorary.  I thought I am positive and passionate man as well. Everything goes natural. But. Revolving within one year. I came here. A poor village. Stay for 1 year. Time is short. But. Pause my life. Which couldn't personalize my favorite. I hardly have my private room to live. Life was up side down. Even this facilities can't be adapt to. Ok. Food supplies. Spontaneously. I tolerated. Enought with slice dry beef. Tasted bloody. As if we are chimpanzee. A whole house be blackened by smoke. Cracking let water drop into the room. Fireplace. It is another sense. Damaged stove and deformed chimney caused plenty of smog clogged in the house. We almost got pneumonia. This is sad beginning. A satire. It opposites to ours expect. Then. We made up the room. Started to work. Took stastics. Censorship. Made paper   Have close talk with locals. Promoted policies. Only lazy for a while. People would think ill of us. Why both of you still sleep. Don't you work. Do you have work to do. Why so lazy. If you don't do this. Your had better leave here. You are not welcome here. Got it.   On night and day duty. On security. On handling their conflict. We had smile. Cry. Wrong and right. Also bittersweet or desensitized feeling. But longest day had end. Waited to this sec. I am out of cage. But like fish out of water. Tear out.