I still remember the time when I was informed of the score. It is about two weeks ago,when I was worried about my future.

    After the exam, I have been lost myself. Life was decadent for me .Maybe I'm too tired and just need a rest .But I was still worried about my future ,that is my job , my study , and a worried thing ,the graduation design .It was too hard for me to keep my mind on one thing . When my doomsday came on , I have'nt been ready.That night I was stock and dull. The next days were just like a huge nightmare .I didn't know how long can I still live . I didn't know where is my future . I didn't want to do anything . I have lost belief in everything , especially myself . When I went to bed , I never want to wake up , because when I wake up , the score came to me .I' m afraid to wake up .Can you understand the feeling? Just  sleep forever , don't ever wake up .But when I was waken , I didn't want to go to bed . I chat with my friends online with tears on my face. I seat in the lab in the midnight . Fortunately , there were two friends staying with me . I knes they were to prevent me from suicide . When I came back to my room , my roommates were all waiting for me .Thanks to them very much , who chat with me,stay with me and wait for me.

    The next two days , I went out and knew that "If you don't open up , you're never to heal ."

    With time going on , I'm still immersed in the past grief . Suddenly , I remember my first english teacher , Zhang Lilin , a charming teacher , who told us that "If you try your best , you will get more than you want ." And I think so .Even though  I have been failed in the entrance exam for graduate students , I believe I get more in the failure .