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Hey~my friends, I haven't written a blog for a long time ,cause I don't know how to epress my feelings in English.However,I will try to improve it.Today I want to say something in my inner heart.Therefore,I want you to give some advice to me.Thanks a million.
As time goes by ,gradually I found that I really have difficult in getting along with people.I just can't be myself when I face to my classmates,though I can't distinguish who I really am .I always wear a mask,it made me really insane.To be honest,When I talk with others, I feel embrassed and don't know what to say.
Otherwise,I think I must be too sensitive and mean in getting on with others and so I always say to myself: you are too stingy and emotional,it's all your problems and none of others' business.For example,I have a friend,she's my classmate and roommate.She is a little selflish and never open her heart to me.She always watches others,like a detector.It's no doubt that she watches whatever I do,too. She likes to imitate me,study,habits,lifestyle...almost everything. It drove me crazy and I can't tolerate it. I hate jealousy.I hate competition,though I have to face her everyday.It had made bad influence to me,I was afraid of her eyes.Now I try breaking away from her because I feel uncomfortable when I be with her,though it is not effective.
I really admire those who have true friend or best friend.As far as I am concerned,I have a few so-call good friends,maybe?
When I am with my good friends,I have no principle.I seldom ask them for help because I don't want to trouble others,though I try my best to treat them well and help them if I can.I am cautious and never say bad words to them.An example again.My best friend, she's my previous classmate. I really cherish the friendship between she and I and she doesn't want to lose a friend,too.She always holds many serects that she never tells me .However,I can understand her.She treats me good, but she likes new friend better.I still remember that one day I go to watch movies with her, she picked up the phone and left me alone beside her for more than one hour,just talked about some boring things.When she is out with me, she always do some other things,she behaves that she just go through the motions .When I asked her if I do anything wrong, she said no.But she doesn't care about me. I can feel it.Actually.We are not so close anymore.
Why can't I have a best friend? Maybe I am too severe with friendship.
At times,my heart is cold.I always be ignored in a group.I never be used to be the leading character in a crowd.I am such a person.
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- Reply teadrinking
- Need not to be so hard yourself, you are not bad, you are doing well.
You are who you are, you are the only one person who can dominate all your things both in life and study.
A good friend is not so easy to get, mostly we just have friends, but it is enough, since everybody has his own things to do.
Just to be with people friendly, and you are blessed then.
- Reply yuanxiu
- Sometimes I find someone who is active besides you is far better, because he or she can encourage you do something you dare not to do on usually and accompany you do these thing together. Gradually you will find you have been stronger enough without him or her. I benefit a lot from my friend and I really thank for these people who ever help me get out of so many embarrassing situation. If you want to find a ture friend, frist you show your heart to others.
- Reply moli
- It is a truth there are many kinds of people around you, so you need not think too much what others think of you.
Be yourself at any time.
I suggest you do something you think right.
- Reply LizHoo
- moli: It is a truth there are many kinds of people around you, so you need not think too much what others think of you.Thanks for your advice.
Be yourself at any time.
I suggest y
- Reply LizHoo
- yuanxiu: Sometimes I find someone who is active besides you is far better, because he or she can encourage you do something you dare not to do on usually and aI think so. Maybe just take it easy, life can be easier
- Reply LizHoo
- teadrinking: Need not to be so hard yourself, you are not bad, you are doing well.thank you. I remember your words"just friendly to people"
You are who you are, you are the only one person who can dominate all your thing
- Reply teadrinking
- LizHoo: thank you. I remember your words"just friendly to people"you are welcome, have a good day
