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Those days before TEM-4 could be a real torment for me for the fact which i had no choice but to face, i have no home any more from then. For a long time, i put up in the house of my father's aunt (i can't put it in formal english so i will call them grandparents in the following passage) afeter the divorce of my parents. the old couple are the most amiable person in the world and unconsciously, i almost consider it as my own home. we live a life just like the nuclear family does. they regard me as their own child and take good care of me.
but the vey fourth day before the test, i got the call from my grandparents, in which they told me that their daughter---my aunt has rent her house out and will move to our home in this month, then we will switch to the so-called extended family life. just at that moment, i seemed to feel that some sort of things were deprived from my heart without any hint of my permission. novertheless, what can i do? of course nothing. it doesn't belong to me orginally and i have no ground to say no to the “invader”.i felt myself a coward and i knew clearly that no one i could turn to. i disguised that everything was dream and one day we could still sit in front of TV and talked the trivial things in our life or take a walk after the supper at dust. i am much of a deceiver throughout my life. i don't know why all things changed after i came first in the grade 1's final. each time i want to share my happiness of some achievement after struggling, they tend to feel that i am just showing off myself and show no interest in what i am saying(or maybe that is the conjecture in my mind) i am not the saint and do want to have ways to vent to. my best friend once told me that your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice.
Post comment Comment (8 replies)
- Reply moli
- I understand your feeling, and I sympathize with you very much.
I give you an advice that you learn how to get along with your relatives when it is difficult for you to stay away from them.
Hope everything is going well with you.
- Reply Sophina
- moli: I understand your feeling, and I sympathize with you very much.i am trying my best to get along with them although i am a introvert.but my friends give me a lot of encouragement.
I give you an advice that you learn how to get along with your relatives when it is di
- Reply linda@crab
- best wishes to u! may u can have some good communication with your new relationships. be happy everyday! easy!!!
- Reply Richardren
- i wish i could do something to pull you out of the difficult situation, but what u need is not sympathy, but the courage to face the world, your are grow-up now very much capable of being independent, with courage and a open mind, i am sure you shall prevail all the toughness of the world. cheer up, young lady!!
- Reply Sophina
- linda@crab: best wishes to u! may u can have some good communication with your new relationships. be happy everyday! easy!!!I still feel that all i have been going through is doom to be one of the essential parts of my life. best wishes to all those confronting the same problems with me.
- Reply Sophina
- Richardren: i wish i could do something to pull you out of the difficult situation, but what u need is not sympathy, but the courage to face the world, your are gi appreciate your encouragement very much and for all your support, i will get rid of it soon, it is not the demon but the inevitable experience we need to handle.
