If you are now reading this diary, i hope you can hear my heart. These days have witnessed my tearful heart. I don't know Awho to turn to for help.
It happens that i can hardly find ways to please my roomates who have shared the bedroom with me for total three years. For me, i clearly know that they are all kind and helpful, but it just seems to me that we have almost no communication with each other. i am quite upset and find nobody to turn to. they likes South Korean TV soaps which i have no interest in. they likes South Korean stars who i have no idea about. I have a boyfriend while they are seeking for their Mr.Perfect. So we have almost nothing in common.
Each time, before i come back to the bedroom, i think about everything what i will do at night. i just have to make myself busy at all times so that i have no time to care about others' indifference, I am a person who is not good at confiding to others instead i'd like to share those sorrows with myself. Since we have nothing in common, the misunderstanding between us become more and more serious.
I desperately hope we can be together just like a family. At this moment, i just like a child who seems to have done something wrong and only the tears can wipe anything away. Each time i feel helpless, i can confide to nobody because nobody will bother to hear my fucking complain. I told those things to my best friend in another school, she replied that i should be independent from all those indifferences and just live a life i want and enjoy.
God...i know that, but the doing is always more difficult than the saying. well, maybe i am too sensitive to such things.