Recently, I cannot fall asleep even in the late evening. When I decided to go I just feel that I shouldn't leave in this way. So many things and so many people hold my steps forward. Suddenly I found it's so hard for me to go and away from the place that I have been stay and work. Years ago I left my home. Today I bear the same feeling. I have spent a long time to adjust myself to the surrounding and living style here. No matter how much I like here but it didn't belong to me.

I finally decide to go back after the fierce inner fighting. My Mum called and we talked on the cell phone for a long time. I know she wants me to go back and miss me very much although she even didn't speak a single world of that.  Her black hair is turning white and I can see wrinkles on her face. No body accompanies her lonely heart except my little niece. My father seldom stays at home for his business. I cannot leave my mum alone at home. She has down so much for me.

I still remember clearly that when I was in middle school, my mum stood in the cold and dark night waiting for me back from school every evening. I am the only middle school student in my village because other fellows all went to the better middle school in the down town. In the early morning she got up very early and prepares the meals for me. 

Ｉdon’t want her to worry about me anymore. It’s the time for me to take care of her.