my life makes me blue and gray in the same way. it seems that i never see the rainbow overhead and i seldom do the right thing at the right time. life gone wrong since i was in my childhood. my very first memory was that i was weeping behind the door in my grandpa's home because i missed my mother so much and no body sent me back.i fighted with my desk mate in primary school and no one played with me even my brother didnt. in the most beautiful lifetime,i stay in school for so many years and know nothing of the world. now it's time to make friends,but i stay in the Office all the time, and just now my boss called and told me to go to work 30 minutes earlier to prepare some displays. i cannot do what l like, l cannot afford the beautiful cloth l dreamed to buy. why i have to work ?l asked myself sometimes. i am no longer young, but what i have done in my youth. noting been achieved. nothing. idle away everyday but never regret or feel a Little bit guilty.complaining all the time and never satisfied. picky and lazy, too many ideas but few action. never laugh loudly. cares noting and bear everything. my heart is a dead sea. emotionless, and cannot spur by anything. boring life with a colorless youth.