The night is very quiet, I cannot hear anything but the clock ticking tirelessly, and my eyes are full of tears, finally I cannot hold it back any more.

For almost two months, I was alone and very lonely. I have tried to do lot of things to transfer my attention, painting, cooking, doing the laundry, cleaning the house, but everything seems not work very well.

Five years ago, I left school and came here to work, I never fell so homesick, although I was depressed and felt anguished in most of times. I never and ever have the feeling in this way. I don’t even notice that I have relied on my husband so much mentally, as long as he is by my side, I feel safe and peaceful in mind. In fact, I seldom rely on him in daily life; I am so independent that I can’t believe myself that I miss him so much. Only two months, he is still on business trip, and he doesn’t know when he can come back either.

Every day when he called, I am sure would ask him when will he be back, every time, he answered that he is not sure, maybe two weeks later, so many two weeks has passed, but still, the program is unfinished.

All the things lost their color, nothing is interesting, food became tasteless, books are boring, and weather is not adorable, days going so slowly, I check the calendar lot of times a day, everything is just not right. I buried myself into bed, sobbing again and again; I can’t b ear to live alone. Every night, bad dreams wakes me up, slight noisy could wake me up too. I am so sleepy in the day so I drink tea and coffee. i am gonna crazy, please don’t leave me alone.