(A basketball lesson on the playground)
To my great surprise, I was asked to dribble, pass or things like that. But I cannot do 'em.
"Are you doing okay, Kitou Kun"
I hung my head low in silence, thus the PE teacher began again,
"Well, why not go back to the classroom with O San, read some books then, for a change of air?"(O San could not take part in the PE lesson for she forgot to bring her sports wear back to school)
And that's when I heard a classmate yelling out loud.
"Yay, that's neat, reading books in the classroom is much more fun."
My heart was filled with anger, so much anger, that I was gonna be bursting out any minute, like mad.
If reading books in the classroom were that fun, why not you and I switched our positions? If only I could be in your shoes, and you in mine, for even just one day, you would totally understand how ruthlessly helpless I am when confronted the things I wanna do, but I am already not able to do them any more.
With every step I take, I feel all the more difficult and helpless. This just couldn't be more easier for any other ordinary persons, but I've lost the ability to do so, and the shamefulness and mercilessness I have been ruthlessly thrown into, nobody would understand. But if you all cannot understand, at least try to feel understanding about my position.
Suddenly it occured to me that if walking alone is all that I feel difficult in already, perchance this is only the beginning of a bumpy life-long journey.
Translated by Interpreter Daniel Rays Lee
どきんと 吓一跳,吃惊
俯く【うつむく】 俯首,低头
透かさず【すかさず】 立刻,马上
級友【きゅうゆう】 同学
煮えくり返る【にえくりかえる】 非常气愤,翻滚,沸腾
思い直す【おもいなおす】 重新考虑,改变主意