His call woke me up at midnight. He did this to me for more than three times. As I cannot turn off my cell phone for some reaons, I really hate midnight calls. It's absolutely annoying! He said that he hasn't seen me for two weeks, and he missed me so much that he wanted to see me on webcam. "God, here is China, not America, I need some sleep, I will contact with you tomorrow morning at 8 o'clock my time, okay?" I said. You cannot believe that we argued and bargained everytime. I asked him whether he cares about me, he said very much. However, I never have the feeling of care from him. I was always so soft-hearted. This time I had a deal with him before turned on my PC. I was serious! "This is our last time, please don't call me, don't email to me again, please promise me". Finally, he made his promise bitterly.

We knew each other for more than a year and I claimed to him that I don't like his personality very much so that I don't want to be his friend. He said he really likes my trait very much that he wanted me to be his friend. For the sake of helping him to improve his sullen character, I have done a lot for him. No matter how often he says he loves my personality. But I cannot see any prospect from him yet. I refused to be his friend totally for 3 times now. This time he promised me, but I have no idea how long can this promise he keeps.

And I think he is too selfish who is always for himself. He takes everything for granted. I was there for him whenever he needed. It seemed he never appreciated. "I have no responsibility for you, do you know how many times I quitted my morning reading to comfort you? How many times I missed my classes because of you who wanted to find someone to talk with? How many times I was woken up by you....?" Think about it....

I always feel guilty if I don't help a friend within my ability because I am a person who takes friendship seriously.