This afternoon，I finally joined the volleyball play and really had a lot of  fun. At first, i just don't feel like going with the flow, I watched their play and walked away several times and felt awkward. Because deep in my heart I do want to play ,it's just that i got a little upset for some guys. The first one asked me out and i kind of stood him up for i 'm really not a big fan of that band. Then, he seemed to be very angry with me not calling him back and I really have no idea how to brought this thing up again in front of him. And the second boy whom i thought i had a crush on suddenly has a girl friend from nowhere. It seems he is really in love with someone and happy. I can't let it go because i do consider he likes me. well, again it's just my oneside wishful thinking and all i can do is to wish their happiness forever and after.