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It's been a tough weekend, can't help shouting out loud...
Last night, my classmate in college told me that my first boyfriend still can't get me out of his mind, my friend asked me to be together with him again, the reason is, he must be the one who love me the deepest, so he suggested that i should grasp the chance.
He also told me that, my ex-bf gave up a job with good salary in order to take the postgraduate entrance examination, and he thought he has potential and we were meant to be.
It really reminds me of my ex-bf. Indeed, he is a good guy, who always treat me so well, he could change a lot of things for me. I was so sad when i thought abt him, at least we've been together for 3 years. At first, he chased me, and i turned him down several times, but it seems that it doesn't work, he keeps doing those good things for me. I remembered, when i got cold, he went to the restaurant to borrow ginger for me to make tea; when i need anything, he would do it for me immediately. I was moved for abt a year, and agreed to be his girlfriend. Things become different, i don't treat him that well, i think that's because i was spoiled, i can't stand him ignoring me, i was so independent at that time, we often quarreled and we separated for several times. But every time, as long as he asked me to get together with him, everytime he apologize, i would always forgive him. I can't lose him, he was so good to me.
3 years later, i found myself getting tired of him, he often skip the classes, that's what i always get angry with. I think he should be more positive instead of getting up late, he was obsessed with computer games like the other boys, his temper is not that good as before, he leave me alone in the restaurant with dropping the chopsticks, i was left alone there, crying, but he never turned back, he might be regretting for what he did, but i would never, ever forget that feeling. So i was so determined to over this relationship.
He keeps asking me to forgive him, but i won't this time. I was so hurt.
Then i had another relationship, my second bf, i like him a lot. Honestly, he don't treat me well as my first bf. But my happiness is much more. At our graduation party, my first bf brought a new "girlfriend", who turned to be a fake one. He drank a lot of wine, he never do that. At that night, i drank a lot, too. I think i cried, for his being so soon to have a new gf, i didn't know that was fake.
It's been a year since that graduation party, i'm still single, he seemed to have a gf in the other city, people say, they don't love each other. Last night, i cried a lot, i miss him, i really do. But i don't know how i feel when it comes to marriage, it seems i don't have the courage to be back together with him, we'r not ready.
So i think the best way to live, is forget abt the past, just forget it. Start over, everything will be fine.
I HOPE SO.
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Post comment Comment (7 replies)
- Reply lwj2k8
- It's hard to distinguish reality from fantasy....whatever alternative u make ultimatlely, the most significant thing is u should be equiped for the coming unknown life...Love is only a part of life, but not the whole...Sometimes, we just are overly concern about it...I know, it would be really difficult days when u broke up with the one u crazily fall in love....cuz i also experienced it before, what i said to her is" I am very very afraid of losing you one day, even though nobody can predict what would happen in the future for us!.....You are my angel, my 'Jesus', but i am dying for you!".....However, anyway, the happy memory has gradually faded away following time pass by, and the fact is that i am still alive....Then, i know not every love would be romantic love...Love is blind....So what i want to tell u is 'Good luck'.....
- Reply hurrymm
- Dear girl, from my perspective, it is the way he treated you instead of him that you miss so much now. And the fact that you are single, in another word, lonely, makes your current state more desperate. Furthermore, “he often skip the classes, that's what i always get angry with. I think he should be more positive instead of getting up late, he was obsessed with computer games like the other boys” a boy like this does not deserve your tears and miserable hesitation. And I have to point out, mercilessly, that you do not love him, at least not so much.
What has gone away has indeed gone, you definitely need move on. A committed relationship entails genuine love from both parties; by contrast, unequal love is always doomed. Go for someone you are really attracted to, someone possessing the qualities you really appreciate, someone repaying you the same amount of love. Go for the real Mr Right of you !
- Reply cabin
- For the love, it's really difficult to say which way is right! Sometime we even don't know how to do, what should we do! Only thing I can say is "follow your heart"!
- Reply Sheena1208
- Some of my classmates have the same experience as you. Their boyfriends treated them very well at the beginning, but as time goes on, they gradually ignore what the girls's feeling. They skipped the classes, played the computer games all day long, became fidgety easily. Maybe males tend to lose their feelings of freshness. All their want is to seek new excitements.
Take careful consideration about your relationship. Good luck.
- Reply wendy12cool
- lwj2k8: It's hard to distinguish reality from fantasy....whatever alternative u make ultimatlely, the most significant thing is u should be equiped for the coThank u, my friend. As you said, love is only a part of life, not the whole, sometimes we are just overly concern abt it. Totally agree, and what i want to say is, after i graduated, i think it's a good chance to start over, i learned to be live alone, doing things i like, cooking, sometimes it brings happiness, but when i thought of someone, especially those who treat me so well, i feel awful. Maybe next time, i would look at the bright side, just be thankful.
- Reply wendy12cool
- hurrymm: Dear girl, from my perspective, it is the way he treated you instead of him that you miss so much now. And the fact that you are single, in another woDear friend, i have to say, u r goooood. It is true that i miss the way he treated me instead of him. when i know it, i left him.
Honestly, I am moved when his friend told me that he still can't get over me, but as you said, bygones r bygone,maybe even if i am with him now, i still can't love him. Sometimes life is tricky, isn't it?
Well, my second bf is the one i thought i loved, but we separated, it didn't last long, my parents don't agree our dating because of the family background. It's really a pity for me. Now i am single, but sometimes wondered, what kind of man is perfect for me. Love and money, i want both of them. Am i asking too much?
- Reply wendy12cool
- Sheena1208: Some of my classmates have the same experience as you. Their boyfriends treated them very well at the beginning, but as time goes on, they gradually iThank u, maybe u'r right! People change.
So when i heard that he still can't get over me, i am surprised. When i thought abt the past, those feelings came back to me, honestly, i was a little afraid. When i wrote this blog, i've come to realize that the past is past, we can't go back. Just be thankful, and believe there would be a more suitable guy waiting for me. Again, thank u for your comment.
