what crime i have  committed, you let my soul feel so lonely.

why i am so afraid of touching the sentiment thing,do i fear to be refused by my beloved girl? or should i scarifice my dignity to earn their happiness, i review my sentimental road ，it doesnt go well,i am ashamed and a shy guy, and i dont know how to win their heart,it seems i dont have so much patiences to spend too much energy on this thing, but i also hate the style ofmarathon love, it's really self-contradict to me ,and it bothers me...........

yes, i have to say i am not good at society communication, most of time i just want to stay in a quiet place lonely,it's really a wonderful time for me,i just dont want to wast my time on these nonsense things, now i think i am wrong, i ingore i am the part of the society, i cant survive if i escape from the orgnization.so i must melt myself into it, but i really dont like the noisy circumstance,i have tried to change before,but it always increase my suffers,so i forget it, i just do myself,i enjoy my character and personality now,so i close my mind to the world, i have my own cosmic,my own universe,so i fall behind further and further .but i can conquer myself, i know what's good and bad stick to my standard.

yes ,i am selfhood people,but i just follow my heart,i feel it good then i do it, contrary if it's bad i will let it go, i persue peace and quiet world in my heart, of course sometimes i will be disterbed by other things,

Today i have a bad emotion, but i dont know whom i should cry out my feeling from my deep down heart to

where are you? i need you now,but you never come till now