Sometimes I doubt what's my real life.I have spent so many years living my life,however,I cannot understand why I am living ,what I live for.Now ,I must bear so much pressure from family,school and social.Why does it become this? Maybe,I think, I am not suitable for the social which is full of competition ,cheat and endless desire.I can't stand,it's really enough.
Utill today,I finally speak out my real thoughts that I don't like competition and even hate it on an interview.Obviously,I fail to it once more for my tension,but I am very happy because I show my minds in public.
Maybe,I need something that doesn't exist any more.Now I need more of a beacon of life.