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it has been the fourth year since i taught in high school. as usual, today one of my lesson was chosen to be observed by my colleagues. to be honest, it was rather an easy lesson which i think my student can accept quickly and i can drive successfully. so i was not worried about it at all. however, as soon as i came into the classroom, i suddenly felt nervous and my heart beat in an irregular way. you know, it's normal to be a little nervous when you begin a class with colleagues or leaders at back of the classroom. but i should calm down later. however, it doesn't work. i still can't take my stage because of the tension inside. i began to hate myself.why it always turned out like this. actually it's really not a big deal how i carried out this lesson.
as a result, i didn't finish the lesson as well as i expected. but i know i could. what a disappointment! i am wondering when on earth i can give free play to myself in the classroom no matter what kind situation i am in.
i spent the whole afternoon thinking about my state of mind. yes, now i have to admit the fact that i am really a perfectionism. because i am always so hard on myself whether for the job or for something else. i put myself in a place where i am not allowed to make mistakes. now i have no idea how to get out from that place. i know it clearly i will be tortured by myself and i will never get the happiness from satisfaction. i will never happy in this way. tell me how to persuade myself to get rid of those things and live an easy life?
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Post comment Comment (2 replies)
- Reply Dino1986
- hey, take it easy, that's not a big deal. I think you should be young, maybe just graduated for little years, you have lots of opportunities to develop yourself if you are willing to. I don't think other's can tell you how to do to be an easy life, the only thing you can do is to change your mind, your altitude to work and life, take it easy, everything will be OK. Just being yourself, doing what feels natural and just enjoy it.
- Reply sunnyv
- Dear, you are only a teacher, not an actress ok? Anybody would be nervous when somebody unfamiliar is watching over you. They don't judge you by just a one-time observation. They know how you teach normally. You are a good teacher. Just concentrate on doing your job well and everything would be fine.
