it's been a million years since i actually typed down something in my blog. 

I'm now sitting in a poorly furnished office in an antique building in a place called Tamn Desa in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.

and i am trapped outside here!

it all started three month ago when i was transfered here for a project that has been courted foor 10 years, and still there's no sign of any breakthrogh so far. i guess im not the answer to the historic problem.

it was exciting at the beginning, because i finally got out the dull office and worked in an exotic place. i swim everyday, and i play basketball games with local Chinese, and sadly that's all i could do here.

i have started questioning myself and the company, what the hell am i doing here!!? i have a pregnant wife in China, and i am playing like a stupid boy here? i want to go home and be a husband a father!!!!

i keep telling myself that you should learn new things here and improve yourself. but it proved that where there's no practical project going on, all you can do is playing ball games and water.

i read a lot, and i watch a lot of movies, and i watch them for a lot of times. i am repeating my day everyday.

i am trapped outside!