Faced with people you care,you'll cover your sorrow so as not to make them worried.

Faced with bowing acquaintances ,you'll cover your sorrow in afraid of exposing your weakness.

That's why we conceal our inside emotion and subtle feeling from the outside world.

That's why we don't feel happy from time to time.

I'm afraid this is an inclination to infantile autism .

Actually,looking around ,i suddenly find there is a similarity among all my sincere friends-----

I didn't make friends with them on my own initiative.

Some are friends brought by parents' friendship ,even from the very beginning of my life.

Some are friends brought by same interests,who i can play without worries.

Some became my friends only because they gradually get to know the real me with time passing know and They appreciate one of my characteristics and always come to care and greet me.

What's more serious,this kind of social interactions seems to have ended in secondary school.

I didn't exclude anyone with intention but with subconscious.

Maybe because i am not satisfied with my own situation in high school and now in college.

I hate this kind of over-Self-preservation.

What can i do ?