Yesterday my best friend went out on a unofficial date with a non -Prince Charming type of guy(her highschool classmate).Conventional dinner&movie, I believe. Oh,I've never seen her this happy in perhaps a week. The problem is that she already has a BF, who's studying in USA.  No,no,no, I have nothing against her conduct .She admits that she takes no interest in the person but the dating elements ,and I found that totally understandable.

However, if someone did this to me--(somebody already did actually)--this playing -fire game of dating more than one girl at the same time, I would go nuts.In fact some jerk just did the same thing to another one of my friends and I was infurious at that bastard, just by my poor friend's account. I felt that men were disgusting creature. But not all of them. Alas, that's where the problem lies.

 

 

Oh, I believe it's the damned weather that makes me so sentimental about it. I can feel something in my body dying--youth, passion, romance. So in a panic to reinstitute my power as a young woman( excuse my inadequate vocabulary), I 'm grabing at whatever comes in my way. Basically people are allowed to choose-- the free will,to quote the Bible--and take responsibilities for the outcomings.  Ladies constantly complain about one thing--it's like the lyric in Carrie's song--"I closed my eyes, I kissed that frog, each time finding, the more boys I meet, the more I love my dog."

 

In searching for a balance between responsiblity for my life and the wild passion,I've found my (plausible)light--to continue to follow Nietzsche. (He wouldn't like the word "follow' if he were alive, though. )I know it sounds pretty weird coz Nietzsche despises women and  I AM (undeniably )female. But to cure my want for my lover , I need a strong medicine. I need his poison.

 

 

Good good study, day day up to everybody and, oh , Happy YueBing Festival^^