there was a guy I had strong feeling for him. we spend some time together. we did many things together at that time. it was a happy time. but I had to choose to leave there. I never told him I loved him. I never wanted him to know I cared about him a lot. all I could do was to make him think I didn't want to take the relationship seriously. I didn't care about him and I didn't love him.

I don't really know what love is. I always believe I can not offord love at the moment. but I lost him. that's for sure.

we can only realise somebody or something precious when we are about to lose them. this is how I feel now.

I even lost contact with him. he can not know how I felt about him at that time.

just wish he is having a happy time and he can have a nice girl with him now.

life is like a game. we are the game player.

there is a saying " we lose something then we can get something better". I lost him but I didn't get somebody better than him. what a joke.

I can't help thinking of him. thinking of all the time we spend together. I wish I could go back to that time. it can never happen like I wish.

don't lose somebody or something you think the best for you. we need to fight to get what we want. I gave it up. now I can not get him back even I fight twice.

don't make the same mistake as me.